Psalm 53 God answers your/my doubt of His existence

53 The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. Corrupt are they, and have done abominable iniquity: there is none that doeth good.

² God looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, that did seek God.

³ Every one of them is gone back: they are altogether become filthy; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

⁴ Have the workers of iniquity no knowledge? who eat up my people as they eat bread: they have not called upon God.

⁵ There were they in great fear, where no fear was: for God hath scattered the bones of him that encampeth against thee: thou hast put them to shame, because God hath despised them.

⁶ Oh that the salvation of Israel were come out of Zion! When God bringeth back the captivity of his people, Jacob shall rejoice, and Israel shall be glad.

Praise be in His name because for me this is miraculous!

So you can be clear what I really meant, I will tell you everything. Listen. I know this not a coincidence or chance. It was a real answer from our Lord. 

To start, I am second year college taking BS applied economics. On my second year of college, there were questions and doubts that puzzled me greatly and I can say it affected me somehow. Well, I have this course named Philosophy. For a college student and those who have gone through with this course, I absolutely know what you will say next. All students are required to have this course, its like an English or math course. Philosophy by its name was the love for wisdom. Okay I wont discuss further. 

Philosophy tackles a lot about God. I thought it would be alright and exciting for me because I would learn more about God. (Who is really God more than we know, more than we knew Him as omnipotent, omnipotence, all-good, all knowing and that He is love). We started by reading a lot of philosophers work like plato's, thales and socrates, descartes etc. Some philosophers assumes or argues that God as the TRUE BEING. He is unmoved mover, the maker, and the first caused. We learned a lot from it. I would even say to myself how come I would not come to know these things to myself. I knew I am a Christian but why I cannot even know all these things? or even bother ask. These noble people asked who made God? If all things are made by God, then who made Him also? I never thought this concept. Maybe it was enough for me to believe what the pastor or the bible says that he is God that there is no CAUSED for his Being. right? I must always think of these views also, right? Not just being a Christian who just solely hear, hear, hear and never ask.


Moving on, our teacher required us to attend a talk about philosophy. The speaker was one of the best professor we had in the university (they said). He is skeptical and I guess an atheist (but not really sure of it). I attended the discussion and I find it interesting but inside me I was a lil bit afraid. I am imagining that the professor may offend my faith with God. On the start of the program, I was thinking of myself if I will walk-out if he will really hurt my feelings or what or even hurt God. :( 
But gladly I survived from the discussion. It talks about the basic stuff of Philosophy and how come it was interesting.  I learned that philosophers are obsess in curiosity. They tend to think and question everything, discuss about how it came to be. They have a real hard thorough research for at least they can be settled with their questions in mind. But overall, I say it was DIFFICULT for someone who has a strong faith with God. 


In the discussion room, there were issues raised like God is dead. :( That there is no really God. Another thing is, when God is really a just God how come He punish His people eternally when that man had just sinned for a little time on earth. See the difference of eternally and a limited time?
I was even bothered and dismayed with this question. It lets me think. again and again. Is there really a God? a Just God that we had learned from the bible. I even wrote on my reflection paper that I wanted God to answer me right now so I will not be like this everyday. Asking and asking and cannot get over with the question. 


Actually, after the program I wanted to cry. The talk may be short, and just a good time for the other students but for me it give me a great impact in my faith. It twisted. I cannot explain. Maybe the feeling is like your mum confessed to you that she is not your real mom. 


I even asked myself, why should I doubt or even try to question after a tons of blessings and miracles HE gave to me. I asked my disciple teacher, Ate Shiena regarding this thins because I am not really settled. I don't want to see myself backing out or leaving the church. It was never in my thoughts or intentions. So here comes her message for me that gave me comfort. God gave us choices to do what we like in this earth. He asked us to follow Him but we follow the other side, the evil side or the unsettled and dangerous mind. It was really true then, if we are punish forever in hell we cannot do anything about it. But we have a salvation that God gave us. It was our choice to accept our Lord Jesus Christ to be our redeemer. Right? We should think that, before we are created, hell was made. And we cannot do anything to eradicate it. God has the right to punish us because He is the one who made us. simple logic. 


It gave me a real comfort but it wasnt enough for me. Every time, I will enter the room I come to think of these issues. I even pray to God to answer me immediately. I want to move on and be settled. I want to live a normal Christian, not a Christian who doubts of existence. I wanted to erase the what if's in my mind. I really wanted to get rid off it. I asked a help from God.


It was 12 midnight of July 24, when I opened the bible. I read Psalm 53. It says in the first verse,
"The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. Corrupt are they, and have done abominable iniquity: there is none that doeth good."
In my mind, God is answering me. I continue reading the whole chapter because it was really interesting and miraculous. 
I am happy. I really am. The feeling was ease and all of a sudden the doubts and questions I had before was gone like a wind. Thank You LORD! You are making yourself to be the ultimate and unquestionable God. 
Who would ever dare to say that there is no HIM. Its the only the fool who have corrupt minds. God gave you already the knowledge of His existence but why you still question it. Don't act like a God to search the unsearchable, No this is not unsearchable, this is already been permanent and indubitable fact that God really EXIST. This cannot be question or eradicate anymore. 


to God be the Glory. He answer me again. Thank you Lord Thank you soo much. I will tell this to your people. Thank You Amen!